Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Darapigms

Spinning. It’s what those nutters do on the stationery bikes sweating, gyrating, literally falling of their pedals in those enclosed rooms in gyms all round the world. I hate it for the first 5 minutes. Every time – which is at least twice a week. And then you warm up. And you find the rhythm. It’s so good to absolutely push yourself. I picture myself as each track ends – as if it’s the last minute in a touch game and I try. Today was such a day. It was awesome.

As the instructor took us through the motions she mentioned that as you change position (sitting up, standing, sitting forward) to work different muscles and engage different types of endurance – she urged us TO MAKE A STATEMENT. As in, as we changed position, not to just slide or stumble into it – but to pronounce it to yourself. It struck me – that that was good advice in life. Whatever you do; not necessarily to anyone else – but to yourself as you make a change, a decision to pronounce it, to reaffirm it, to really concentrate and mean something to oneself. Especially if there is a goal you are working towards. MAKE A STATEMENT. I like that.


chaching

I was listening to a spiritual discourse around a fortnight ago. The concept of paradigms was brought up and the discourser talked about how recently there had been some global paradigm shifts. It has been IMMENSE in the last year. The financial crisis, the escalation of China, the decline of the West, the in-your-faceness of the global climate challenge. These have all been VERY macro changes but personally and I am sure for everybody the micro-consequences were undeniable. It flipped so much. September 11 did not affect me that much and the uptake on terrorism felt more like slow burner or me as I was a bit more distanced. But I remember vividly following the stock market, the news, the fallout. It was extraordinary. It was like a tsunami in slow motion, coming closer and closer – I knew I was going to get hit. There was next to nothing I could do about it. I pedaled; dang I pedaled hard. I remember telling someone that the only way to survive it was to be a “force of nature”. I tried but couldn’t work out the lock. And then there I was dazed, confused, so much that I had known had changed. The same rules did not apply, time trialed solutions did not work and even problems that I had never considered came up. BAM. The landscape changed. It was extraordinary. In many ways – it was wonderful. It was a challenge. It was scary but there was an excitement – a nervous edge – you know like Lost. You had to hack down a brand new pathway.

I learnt so much. So much about myself. Depths I did not know. I made so many mistakes. Mistakes I thought I was incapable of. I succeeded in ways that I had always wanted to. Learnt so much.

Change is the only truth in nature. Gam ze yavor.

It really hit home. What was really important. And perhaps what was not.

This was so micro. It had come from a macro catalyst. The response goes the other way. From micro to macro.

The Copenhagen summit is going on. We need to make some extremely radical changes in the way we live. How organizations function. Our idea of what is correct, what exactly a solution is – seems to all have to change. Well it doesn’t all have to change but we need to question things and be honest about the answers. Denials are just houses of cards.

I was in the States recently. It really hit home, how ridiculously unsustainable the lifestyle there is and probably other places. Big oil quenching cars (I don’t think it’s far away before there is a tax for travelling in a car with no passengers – I don’t think it’s far before car pooling is a thriving business), large food portions – the waste is unreal. The un-necessity. I believe the Bangladeshi foreign minister came out recently stating that Western countries and others that have escalated Global warming should be ready to accept millions of people from Third world countries who have not contributed and yet will be affected by the expected changes in weather patterns. That’s fair isn’t it? Yeah right. I can empathise as well – most would struggle to give up their large house and other luxuries to promote the livelihood of a person who lives millions of miles – who they have no empathetic connection to. It’s funny we will rush to help any man who is hit by a car in front our eyes and will struggle to do anything to help him but the disconnect is so huge when literally the same is occurring to another millions of miles away in front of our eyes. All of this has will change. Dramatically.

Unfortunately I don’t see the change coming from the older generations. I think it HAS to be driven by 30 year olds, 25 year olds, 18 year olds, 10 year olds. It is their future – they are armed with more education, more information – it is survival and I am sure that innate attribute “to survive” will kick in. It’s going to be fascinating to see it unravel. Here is to all of us being part of the solution and not the problem. We don’t have to be perfect – but let’s start by recognizing and want to solve the problems. To be honest – I believe that is the problem solved. You cannot fail – if you don’t quit.

Here is to paradigm shifts and the wonderful learnings it brings. Here is to the innovation in organisms and organizations that has to occur and always will.

Friday, November 20, 2009

go girls

i have been thinking of writing for a while. for a very long little while. i have thought much about it. so much that, that it had nearly become a did, on quite a few ocassions. finally i am doing.

there is a cute little drama series called "go girls". it is about 4 kids in new zealand. not tiny kids but big kids. it is about friendships and unfriendships, appearances and unappearances. it is a cute little drama series about 4 friends and figuring out that easy puzzle called life.

:)

its one of my fave topics. identity. i think on it a lot. so many layers - no? who you are, what you want, where you have to go, where do you want to be and really what do you leave behind.

:)

what do you want to leave behind.

what do you want to leave behind.

what do you want to leave behind.

it has always struck me - the best decisions are those that are made when one thinks "what would i want my child to do".

another thing that has struck me as more and more of my friends start sprouting sproutlings, is that there is probably no greater attachment, no greater deep driving desire than to the attachment to one's child. and it is funny how counter productive that can be.

desire => fear => pain.

anyway i digress. identity. it has been nearly 4 years since i left nz. and i long for it. i long for auckland city. i long for familiarity. i long for beautiful days that make you feel so happy to be alive that the rays make your being sing/dance - music all around. i long to be around my whanau.

identity - i suppose like many things it is about who you decide to be. it is about CLARITY and then the CONFIDENCE - to go - this is who i decide to be. i suppose that happens when you look into the mirror and go with all your heart "I'll bet on you".

it takes a different amount of time for different people. and i suppose many never get there. perhaps one gets there - when one stops wanting for the wants of tomorrow and lives the life of today.

:)

cogito ergo sum

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbm5Rkg1slY

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Vocational inspiration.

Here are a few Hippo Clich'es :

"attitude is everything"
"love conquers all"
"all i can ask from you is courage"

One omy fave ones - which I have been repeating a lot recently is :

"life is full of stories. and really that is all you have."

even that does not stand the test of time but it does last a little longer than most things.

i say it over and over again to many many people. life is about stories. that's all everything is - a story.

in my trade i act as a middleman. a salesman. a business reaffirmist. and a listner.

nearly every day - sometimes 3/4 times a day - i get to listen to people. for 45 - 60 minutes - they let me in. they basicly take me through their career. but it's so rich you know. there is so much in that. i hear about context, consequence. i hear about trials and tribulations. and it's a safe place for them you see - so very quickly - walls come down.

this week for example - i met 2 people from africa or had worked in africa. one was zimbabwean and he was telling me about how he could not relate to what was going on there. another person was telling me how there were hospitals in africa where he had worked for and they were implementing the latest technology but due to mismanagement there was no clean water for the patients. then there was the high flyer who went to london without anything and came back with everything. stories.

stories, stories, stories. and the same thing things happenw with organisations. when there is a new job/role - be it senior or junior - it tells the tale of an group of people trying to grow, trying be more economical, trying to be better. why do you need somebdy with this skill set? why not something else? what is the plan? what is the right fit.

it's fantastic. it matures into this ability to be able to see dominoes, consequence, how on thing affects another - and that is so cool. whole chaptes, books, collections form in front of my eyes when only one small part of the puzzle is placed in front of me.

i love it. i learn so much. and it keeps it really - interesting.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Let's get SMART.

I go to sleep on all days other than Friday/Saturday latest by 2200.

I go to the gym every weekday at 0600.

I go to the gym 2 days on weeknights.(the latest I can get there is @ 1930)(Wed,Mon)

I spend 60 minutes on work on Saturdays. (0900 - 1000)

I spend 60 minutes on work on Sundays. (1400 - 1500)

I am at the gym 1100 - 1300 on Saturday.

Speed training once a week. On Thursday - just sprinting excercises.

Try a new restaraunt on Fridays.

See one new movie on Frday night.

Work hours are 0715 - 1930.

Monday, January 26, 2009

My Wish Tick Box

Get an A+
Travel to Bhutan
Become a business leader
Have a 6 pack
Finish a marathon
Create Indian Dance history Choreo
Be immaculate about cleanliness and order

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Tick box

It's a phrase I like to use quite often:

Tick Box - that square in checklists and surveys. That box that insists you adorn it with a skewed "v".

I like tick boxes. I have always liked seting my self lofty goals. It's the whole Batman-there-is-nothing-else-to-do-than-have-obsessions-in-life philosphy. I mean really everything gets a bet cruisy and boring but having a focused, intense competitive goal; keeps it interesting.

Nothing more than that really. I love sports video games - because it allows me to compete. It keeps the rush going. Sometimes - I nearly like losing or having to work really hard to win because it bites at me. Gnaws at me. I fully empathise with Obama's suggestion that this is the time to Preside over the States. What better time? A time when he will get pushed, his mettle will be tested. A challenge for the ages.

:)

It's high time I had a tick box. High high time.

There are two tick boxes the first is the mandatory:

The second is the "things I would like to have done in my life: list:

So here goes:

Excel at my profession OX
Excel in my fitness - put in sustained effort to add to my pace OX
Become really good at Fifa 09 PS3

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

slumdog to millionaire : a transition generation

as i was watching this movie; i did not want it to be as good as i heard it would be. i wanted to be able to say that roja, bombay and nayagan were better just because i wanted to say that i had seen indian movies that were better than the broader population.

but this was good. this was very good. this was very very good. this was "tearing totally at the end" good. this was o so wholesomelly good.

i hope countless indian kids go to this movie on their first date. i hope countless kids go to this movie on their first date.

they should have picked indian indian kids as the actors. i am a stickler for accents in a movie and some of the indian accents in the movie were rubbish. but that kid in the main role - top job buddy - i think Dev is his name.

this is a must watch across every generation. the best thing about the movie was the way the story was told to us. you have to give the director credit for this. it is so easy to mess up a movie when it shows the characters age and when there is so much ground to cover. god i wish i had read the book. it must have been tingling.

do you remember what it feels like to yearn for someone. to yearn so much that your heart just fills up. fills up so much that it keeps getting bigger and bigger and bigger but it never bursts. it is a nice feeling. one that is good to experience. it brings a genuine smile.

i am envious of the generation below me. the indian generation below me. as a friend pointed we are the transition generation. the one below is brash, confident, willing to re-write the rules. they live in a world where global communication and exchange existed from childhood. it was never cool to be indian. it was never cool to be a cool indian. well in my world anyway. there was code, rules, mannerisms, etiquette, cultural norms. they had to be abided by or you were a bit lesser. or rather if you followed them you were a bit greater. it is so funny when i look back at it all. as that first really big generation of indians left the country - it was this absolutely comical competition to see which group/family lived like them and their parents did in india. we are the transition generation. pisses me right off. lol.

i remember thinking about the new indian youth sometime back. i remember reading about this youth in the leading newspapers of the world. when it hit me most though was around 2 years ago whilst i was in chennai and i got a chance to walk through the city. i had not been to chennai for around three years and to this day i remember "feeling" the difference. the vigour, the excitement, that palpable "anything could be achieved here"/"this is where dreams come alive" feeling like in new york except this was young and raw for i knew so.

my india - to this day is fundamentally kerala and really calicut. and i played that charachter well; really well. hey i got my senior crew big points for playing that role really well in my younger days. and that is a part of india. but there is so much more to the indian. i will one day - not too far away; whistle my own tune through india. i yearn to hear the different echos in the different corners of the country.

courage, honesty and sleflessness - you can't really ask more from a person than that. there is a good argument to be made that modern india was forged under the inspiration of those traits. we forget that sometimes. i never used to. i never used to. i have recently.

anyway - it's been a long time i have been inspired enough to write without wanting to stop. but i shall shortly. let's recap.

:) i am angry that i am part of the indian "transition generation" (i wonder if my generation in india feels the same). look if there are any kids below 22-24 reading this who might get snapped up in the former. live your life. there is no set path you have to follow. follow your dreams. sit down work out what you want to do. you are lucky for if you are indian you have a fantastic ancestry - something which can be a pool of inspiration like few social pools can be. do not succumb to the pressures of familial conformity. values are important and will help you to serve, understand yourself and the relationship with society and might even provide clarity on your existence. i have seen however cultural norms used as a stick too many times however just to satisfy fear. do not succumb to this. you can do whatever you want. and by doing so - you do justice to your ancestory.

and finally - well - it's nice to be inspired. really nice. i leave you with this thought. we really have to story in life. write,create, live stories through our life. really that is all we have. good, bad, funny, scary - they are all but stories. nothing really matters. but the more stories we have, the more we may have a chance to understand truths, the more we might have to pass on to the next generation.

this was a fantastic movie. inspiring. a real journey-taker. a good story.

9.25/10

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