go girls

i have been thinking of writing for a while. for a very long little while. i have thought much about it. so much that, that it had nearly become a did, on quite a few ocassions. finally i am doing.

there is a cute little drama series called "go girls". it is about 4 kids in new zealand. not tiny kids but big kids. it is about friendships and unfriendships, appearances and unappearances. it is a cute little drama series about 4 friends and figuring out that easy puzzle called life.

:)

its one of my fave topics. identity. i think on it a lot. so many layers - no? who you are, what you want, where you have to go, where do you want to be and really what do you leave behind.

:)

what do you want to leave behind.

what do you want to leave behind.

what do you want to leave behind.

it has always struck me - the best decisions are those that are made when one thinks "what would i want my child to do".

another thing that has struck me as more and more of my friends start sprouting sproutlings, is that there is probably no greater attachment, no greater deep driving desire than to the attachment to one's child. and it is funny how counter productive that can be.

desire => fear => pain.

anyway i digress. identity. it has been nearly 4 years since i left nz. and i long for it. i long for auckland city. i long for familiarity. i long for beautiful days that make you feel so happy to be alive that the rays make your being sing/dance - music all around. i long to be around my whanau.

identity - i suppose like many things it is about who you decide to be. it is about CLARITY and then the CONFIDENCE - to go - this is who i decide to be. i suppose that happens when you look into the mirror and go with all your heart "I'll bet on you".

it takes a different amount of time for different people. and i suppose many never get there. perhaps one gets there - when one stops wanting for the wants of tomorrow and lives the life of today.

:)

cogito ergo sum

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbm5Rkg1slY